the feeling of an artist

it's not something you did or didn't
or something you said or listened
it's what you have become that is hurting me the most
my friend, you left me
when I needed you the most
am lost
what have I told you
what have I done
I have never sold you
I have never been gone
and there you are standing
so pale like a ghost
with the feeling so deep inside
the so called so cold